Death of a Squirrel–animals and moral inconsistency


The other day, I ran over a squirrel.
It wasn’t all that surprising. There are lots of squirrels, and they do run across the roads. But I’d been dreading this occurrence and hoping that, with careful attention, I might go my entire life and never hit a squirrel. (It’s too late now to hope that I’ll never hit a deer, though I hope never to hit another one.)
So this squirrel ran out in front of me and I wasn’t able to avoid him. There was a small thud/crunch noise as I drove on.
Now what should I do, I thought. As a person who cares about animals, big and small, what should I do?
I turned around and drove slowly past the scene of the scrunch. Was it dead? It certainly wasn’t moving. Other cars passed it. I drove on without stopping.
It was a squirrel. Had it been a dog or cat, my day would have come to a screeching halt. I would have been bound to investigate, tend it, and—horrible day—notify its owners. The incident would probably have become fodder for bad dreams.
But it was a squirrel, a “tree-rat”, and they get run over all the time, don’t they? There are lots of squirrels. It wasn’t even a turtle or an owl, which probably would have caused me to stop and investigate its condition, maybe call CLAWS or some similar organization for help.
Where’s the consistency in any of this?
It makes sense that I wouldn’t react the same way as for a person. Human animals and other animals–different cases entirely. Had it been a person, even if only mildly injured, more than my day would have come to a screeching halt. My life would never have been the same.
And no person was concerned in the incident–almost certainly there wasn’t any person who knew and loved this squirrel. Probably there wasn’t any person who could even have told it apart from any other squirrel.
But is that really all there is to it? Whether a person is involved? Had it been a feral cat, I’m pretty sure I would have been more concerned, even with no owner to worry about. And is my concern with owls and turtles strictly about their value to the environment?
Should morals be consistent? As a (lapsed) philosopher in ethics, I want to say yes. Inconsistency suggests there is a problem, either with our principles or with our behavior. People who treat other groups of people badly, if faced with the apparent inconsistency, try to rationalize. “Those” people are different in ways x, y, and z—not like “our kind,” and not deserving of the same treatment. Most of those differences are either irrelevant or false. (Some differences may be real and a result of different cultural upbringing, but that doesn’t justify disrespect. Complicated subject and not relevant here.)
Going back to my original topic—clearly animals are not “our kind”, but they are all animals. Why the enormous inconsistency in how we treat them? Some wild animals get fed (birds, usually—please DON’T feed the deer), while others are hunted. Some animals we eat, but require to be treated and killed humanely. Some animals we take to the vet and go to great lengths to help, because we love them. Sometimes the animals we eat and the animals we love are of the very same species.
We loved our guinea pigs–I’m not even saying how far we went to treat them when they got sick. And yet, the recent newsletter from Heifer International had an article on guinea pigs–easy to raise, tasty, nutritious–with photos of a cuyeria where they serve various dishes of cuy (guinea pig). And photos of pens of adorable red-and-white piggies, all destined for the cuyeria. And why not—guinea pigs are no more special than rabbits and cows and goats.
Inconsistency.
Even at the very vet where we took our darling piggies for help, they also sold frozen baby rats and mice (pinkies, fuzzies, weanlings) to feed pet snakes. Snakes have to eat, too. So they went to great lengths to help some rodents, and deliberately killed others. You might say that really they were just trying to help the owners, the humans, but I don’t think it’s that simple.  They really cared about our piggies. They would not have taken it lightly if we had said, “Oh, we don’t actually mind what happens to them. Do whatever you want.”
And yet, suppose we tried to be consistent. Suppose we cared about all animals, because all animals can feel pain. It would still be true that snakes need to eat rodents, cats need meat-based food, the wild owls eat the baby squirrels and fieldmice …
Most of the time, I ignore the inconsistency. Having a child makes that more difficult. I think most children have that moment when they realize that the meat they are eating was once an animal, and ask “Why do we do this?”. At that moment, parents have to reopen a question that they may have been ignoring since the moment when they had that realization and asked their own parents. For parents in some circumstances, the answer is easy—“We eat animals because we have to.” Sometimes raising livestock or hunting is the difference between sustaining life and starving. For parents in more prosperous circumstances, the answer has to be different.
The inconsistency nags at me. The squirrel. The bird my cat tried to bring in yesterday. (Why couldn’t it have been a vole? They keep eating my plants.) The vet’s office. My daughter who is a vegetarian. Sandu, in my novel Adrift. (His father can truly give him the easy answer, but why did the One design the world in such a cruel way?)
I should be wrapping up this post with a conclusion. Something satisfying, yet thought provoking. I don’t have one. I don’t know if I ever will.
Till next post.

The Reusable Fabric Grocery Bag—a quest to make the perfect bag


I know I should bring my own reusable grocery bags instead of accumulating endless plastic ones. While some of the plastic bags have a second life as receptacles for kitty litter or as lining for small wastebaskets, the majority get one use and then it’s off to the plastic bag recycle bin.
I have some reusable grocery bags already. Sometimes they are even in my car when I go shopping. I think there are two reasons I tend not to use them. 
The first is that I forget to hand them over to the cashier before she or he starts bagging—and then it seems to be too late. Once I handed the bag over late, thinking that, well, the next bag’s worth of groceries could go in it, and the cashier actually took the groceries OUT of the plastic bag and put them in my bag. I totally did not intend that, but couldn’t seem to stop her in time. So the plastic bag had already been used AND she’d bagged those groceries twice. What a waste.
The other reason is that it seems so inconvenient for bagging. Plastic bags come with those metal racks to hold them open, and paper bags stand up by themselves, making bagging easy (or at least easier.) Reusable bags seem to come in two kinds—stiff and not terribly washable, or washable but floppy. I want a bag I can wash every now and again, but I hate handing the cashier a floppy bag because I feel like I’m creating extra work.
(Note: with the trend toward increasing self-service, at airports, banks, and now grocery stores, perhaps we will soon be bagging all our own groceries. They already do that in some other countries. I can’t say I’m enthusiastic at the prospect. And while it might cut down on carpal tunnel in cashiers, it seems more likely that it would just cut down on the number of cashiers, and so the number of cashier jobs available.)
So, regardless of who actually does the bagging, here are my criteria for the ideal reusable fabric grocery bag:
1.      Washable.
2.      Stiff enough to stand open.
3.      Folds when not in use. (Otherwise, baskets might work.)
I imagine my ideal bag resembling a paper bag—wide, flat-bottomed, short-handled. Actually, the length of the handles depends on whether you are just carrying bags in and out of your car, or having to take them on the bus. Short handles are ideal if you are carrying a bag in each hand, but no use if you want to sling the bag over your shoulder. But a shoulder bag can’t be filled quite as full, I think. Since I usually grocery-shop by car, I want short handles.
Bonus points: Can be made with materials I already have.
One way to make a bag stiff is to use stiff material. For Grocery Bag Version 1, I made the exterior from some leftover canvas (or maybe it was heavy muslin), with piping along the edges (hoping that would add stiffness.) (Pattern was a modified version of The Spruce’s grocery bag.) I lined it with remnants of a floral sheet, and put a piece of cardboard on the flat bottom.
 
The result, as you can see, is still very floppy. Presumably a really heavy canvas would have given me something like a tote from  L.L. Bean, which is definitely stiff enough to stand up, but not good for washing or folding.
Grocery Bag Version 2 is a lightweight bag made just from the floral fabric with no lining. I did put strips of the muslin/canvas along the edges in place of piping. The goal here was to use a cardboard insert made from a cereal box to create a boxy shape. The difficulty is trying to come up with an insert that folds away neatly. This one sort of folds. Not nearly well enough. It might also be too lightweight when faced with canned goods. I haven’t tested it.
I also made this bag shorter, so it would be easier to load. This might have a cost in terms of what groceries it can hold—a baguette would probably fall out.
There must be all sorts of grocery bag plans out there that I didn’t find in my relatively short search. Maybe a removeable folding wire frame, or a stiff exterior with removable washable lining?
Has anyone found one that meets all my requirements? Please comment.

Boredom Is the Mother of Invention


I’ve hardly been bored at all for the past fifteen years.

On the face of it, that sounds great. Admittedly, for the first of those years, M was very young. There were not a lot of boring moments. On those occasions when I was on my own with nothing to do–say, waiting in the dentist’s office—I enjoyed blissful peace and quiet. Enjoying peace and quiet is not the same as being bored.
But even now that M is a teenager who is busy with her own life and isn’t hanging around saying, “Mommy, play with me,”, I am still not bored.
I would like to take credit for this and pretend that it is a mark of superiority, but the fact is—is anyone bored any more?
Okay, that’s going too far. Students trapped in an unusually dreary class and employees stuck in a long meeting may indeed be bored. Various kinds of work may be boring, more or less. But is anyone bored on their own time? Entertainment is just a smartphone away.
Given a connection, the internet has something for everyone. Music. Music videos. Netflix, if you have a subscription. Youtube and a selection of TV shows from broadcast networks if you don’t. Blogs. News articles. Pretty pictures. Classics in e-book format, no library visit required. 
One of my pastimes is typing semi-random terms into Google and seeing what I get. For instance, I just tried “quilting leaf print” and got a lot of listings of available fabrics and a couple of quilters’ blogs, complete with some nice photos of their projects. “Mints garden formal” didn’t give me much of interest, but “garden mint projects” gave me a recipe for mint-flavored sugar, among other things.
black and white photo of girl drawing in the car

So I am rarely bored. But is that as good as it sounds? Perhaps a little boredom is motivating. Instead of entering terms into Google, or watching “The Finder” on Netflix, I could be messing around with actual mint leaves or working on one of my existing quilt projects. It’s just a lot easier to surf the web.

kids playing by a tree with a rope tied to itEntertainment wasn’t always so accessible. From age ten to fourteen, I was overseas with my family. There was very little available on television, and most of it was in French. I had my books, but the only real library I could use was the one at school. I read a lot, and re-read, and browsed the kids’ encyclopedia the way I now browse the internet, but I also drew, wrote, sewed, played games with my brother, tried to make moccasins out of fake leather, tried to make fake leather from cardboard and soap (remember neather, G?), and swung on a rope from a rubber tree till the knot slipped (fortunately it was close to the ground.) Sometimes I was bored and pestered my mom while she was trying to read—“I’m bored!”—and then dismissed every suggestion she made (poor mom!), but eventually I would find something to do. A kid can only be bored for so long before something starts to look interesting.
I guess this is a roundabout way of saying that maybe I’m spending too much time browsing the internet, and maybe also too much time flipping through magazines and newspapers without really taking time to digest what I’m reading.
Maybe, if I find myself opening up my browser with no real purpose in mind, I should stop and let myself be bored for a little while. I doubt I’ll be able to stand it for very long without finding something to do.
 
Boredom is the mother of invention.
Till next post.
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